Time.

Time seems to be just standing still the past few days. I feel like I'm in a waiting game. Waiting for things to change, waiting for I don't know what for. Waiting for God to do something. I've done and said and prayed everything I can think of in 2008. I'm exhausted in every way a person can be. I've changed so much. But I still have that ache. I need so badly for God to do something. For things to be different inside me still. I need a person to show up, a friend to call, someone to reach out to me and call me up to get together. I need my phone to ring or a car to pull up at my house. IneedJesusinpersontoshowup. Time just seems to be NOT MOVING ON. I feel like everything around me is standing still. I've done everything I can think of, asked God for help in every way I can imagine. I'm just .... waiting. Its like the whole world is moving on, but here I stand alone.

New Year’s Realizations and Resolutions

2008 was a full and challenging year for me as a mother and parent. There were a lot of changes, events and decisions that had to be made that made life too real where the effects hit too close for comfort. I know that I made mistakes here and there but still feel that I managed to recover a wiser woman. So I welcome this new year with a clear mind and an open heart.
I realized that no daily planner, or blackberry or even alarm clock can prepare you for anything that suddenly decides to disrupt your life. This is especially true if you fill up your calendar to the brink and leave no room for contingency.
Following that thought, is my realization that practicing juggling your mommy tasks for a year will never result in increasing the length of time between 9 am and 12 noon. But then I realized that despite the difficulties, I will still never choose to leave them behind. And you can only hope that you learn to extend your patience a little bit more each time.
It is important to note that I would not have made it through the year alive if not for the help of my family. They have been there everyday with me for the past few years and a lot of my sanity has been kept intact because they ran with me, cleaned and cooked with me, kissed wounded knees with me, made sure no one disturbed me while I’m having my 5-minute bath (a.k.a personal time) and became more valuable to me as reminders more so than anything I have in my laptop.

I have never been happier than whenever I witness THEA doing something new or saying something witty that would totally surprise me.

I think that the year was successful in proving to me that I spread myself too thin. There were too many missed deadlines, missed dinners and missed activities. So this year, my resolutions will focus only on my priorities. And my priorities start with my family.

How will you kick off your new year?

(in a span of 2 months we were able to travel Singapore twice, Hong Kong, and Macau)


“is love really lovelier the second time around?”

(Joriel and I met and were together back in 2004 til we parted ways in 2005.
3 years passed without any communication at all, we just found ourselves "together" once again while he has ISHA and I have my THEA, both single parents and raising our little girls....hmmm reality bites)

A friend of mine muttered, “is love really lovelier the second time around?” As I processed his words, I could sense that It was not a question. It was more of an “as a matter of fact question-statement.” A question with a ready answer. A fact.
For me, the statement is not absolute. It is one of those which could be true for some, but absolutely false for many others. It could be true for now. It could be an error the next morning.

But where do I stand right now?

… I guess I’m still weighing things. I would rather say that we’re on a status quo. Things get better when we got back together. For sure, there are moments which make me happy. But still, there are more uncertainties that haunt me. There are facts in our relationship that give me frozen feet.

Is he the one? Am I the one for him? Who am I to judge? = PUZZLE.

So, is love lovelier the second time around? = I DON'T KNOW YET.

August 2008 - Singapore Business Trip

1st person to see whenever I'm in SG = my bestfriend CHE.

2nd best things to do in SG = tumambay sa TCC - Raffles! at syempre Shopping sa TAKISHIMAYA!

14 years after Highschool..sa Singapore na kami nagkikita kita..Beat that!

Highlights of this trip:

The Singapore Grand Prix is a Formula One race which will be staged in the Marina Bay area of Singapore. The first race, which was also Formula One's first night race.

and whatelese but, he followed.

JULY 20-22, 2008 HONG KONG and MACAU TRIP

Avenue of Stars and a vie of Hong Kong Island day and night:

One of our first stops in Hong Kong was to see the 8:00 pm light show from the Avenue of Stars. When we stepped out of the building onto the boardwalk and I was completely overwhelmed by the view. It was by far the most amazing cityscape I've ever seen in my life. All the tall skyscrapers, belonging to companies from all over the world, line the harbor on Hong Kong island. The light show is a combination of strobe lights and sparkling lights on the buildings on the island that are coordinated with music. It was interesting to see, but I think the actual view of the harbor at night was much more amazing than any flashing lights.

The Hong Kong International Airport was named the world's best for the seventh year in an annual survey of passengers, with Asian airports dominating the top positions in the list.

Happy 31st Birthday to me from Mickey, Minnie and Joriel.

"Here you leave today and enter the world of yesterday, tomorrow and fantasy". Main Gate - Hongkong Disneyland .

1st SINGAPORE Business Trip

I fell in love with Singapore the first time I set foot at Changi Airport - one of the best in the world. I was there last July for a business trip and I opt to stay in my friends' flat in Ang Mo Kio while I was asked to report in our Raffles Place corporate office. Ienjoyed the zoo, the night safari and the science center. Of course, top of the list was the Merlion, Esplanade, Singapore Flyer and the visit to Sentosa.

it was indeed a memorable experience since it was Joriel and I first trip abroad together.

How I wish more women would say that … the world would be a better place. For one thing, women will stop being punching bags for their insecure husbands. Single moms like me will be respected because we will no longer need a man’s approval to breathe and live. Motherhood will be celebrated!I don’t need a man to be complete because I already am complete. I have a steady, good paying work job that many of my friends are envious of. I have a little girl who loves me unconditionally and who will be there with me until the day I die. I have a great family, no matter how dysfunctional we may seem. My friends will forever stick with me through thick and thin. I have a home, I pay my bills on time and I don’t owe anybody money. I’m healthy and I still have about 6 or 7 cat lives to go. I don’t have to stress that I’m happy with how my life is right now.

I have the sperm donor to thank for. If he never left me, I would never have realized what I’ve been missing. I would never have found out what I’m capable of. Thank you for making me accomplish everything without you. Like what my friends said, the best way to get even is to show you that I’m better off without you. And they were right, because without you I am now complete.